A Heavy Heart

Today I have a heavy heart… Uuuuuuughhhhh.

Today we learned that one of my fellow bone marrow transplant family members, Maddi Teske, relapsed. Maddi is 4 years old, almost 5. She was originally diagnosed with ALL, she had a transplant a week before I had mine, and she relapsed after the transplant. Her and her family the went to Children Hospital of Philadelphia (CHOP) to receive an immunoltherapy treatment called CAR-T therapy. All seemed to be going well, until today when there was a post on her CaringBridge page titled, “The leukemia is back”… The scary thing is… the doctors and Maddi and her family… don’t have a lot of other treatment options. Maddi’s body has already endured soooooooo much. So much chemo, radiation, toxic drugs and pills… She is so fragile. My heart… It hurts for Maddi, it hurts for the Teske family. Why..?! Why this little girl? Why her… Why anyone… Why. And as I sit here, I have no answer, and I have a feeling I wont get an answer until the day I meet Jesus face to face. But life isn’t about having the answers to these questions, life isn’t about knowing all, life is about trusting and living for Jesus. And right now, in this moment and time of question, I need to put my trust in Jesus and His divine plan. I need to trust that He knows what He is doing, trust Jesus.

Joshua 1:9 Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”

Psalm 31:14 But I trust in you, LORD; I say, “You are my God.”

Psalm 56:3 When I am afraid, I put my trust in you.

I pray these verses over Maddi and her family, please pray with me for them. Pray that they will trust in the Lord. Pray that the Lord gives them hope and peace.                (Romans 15:13 May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.) Pray for healing, IN THE NAME OF JESUS! Weather that is through a form of treatment, or divine healing. Jesus is bigger than any disease, He can heal Maddi. No matter how hopeless the situation looks, Jesus is bigger, He is stronger, He is more powerful than cancer. Think of all of the stories of Jesus healing the blind, the mute, the deaf, the lame, even bringing people back to life. Think of the stories of the splitting of the red sea, the calming of the storm when the disciples were in the boat (Matthew 8:23-27). Jesus has complete authority over everything, including cancer. Declare this truth, and pray in the name of Jesus, that He heals Maddi. Pray without ceasing. Enter into war with this disease through prayer.

1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.

On top of this news, one of my close friends I just got to know through FCA sports camp, has been dealing with some health issues. She has not felt 100% for 3-5 years. She struggles with having energy throughout her day, headaches/migraines, joint pain, and other discomfort and pain. This has been going on for years, and she is emotionally worn out, she is physically worn out, she knows Jesus as her Lord and Savior, but she has been asking the question “why?” Why has He allowed her to endure this for so long? And so am I. My heart aches for her the same way it does for Maddi. I know that feeling. I was planning on doing a post about my story today, but this is more important right now. For those who don’t know my story, or part of my life story, I had ALL and went through treatment, I also received a bone marrow transplant. I know the feeling of physical and emotional despair. The feeling of being tired, and just wanting to be done feeling crappy. The desire to be on the “other side” and be able to look back at that season that Maddi and Kalli are in. I remember that feeling, the feeling Maddi and my friend Kalli are experiencing right now. Kalli is going in next month to be tested for lymes disease, and she is pretty sure she has it. She has done research and has the exact symptoms of lymes disease. So pray the same things for Kalli, that I asked you to pray for Maddi.

So today is a post of only prayer requests. Getting to know me will have to be postponed. This post is about healing for Maddi and Kalli. Join me in prayer. Have faith that Jesus can, and will heal.

All we need is faith the size of a mustard seed, and we can move mountains (Matthew 17:20). So have faith, and this cancer, and this disease, will be cured. Maddi and Kalli will be cured. Pray. Pray. Pray. In the powerful name of Jesus Christ.

5 thoughts on “A Heavy Heart

  1. Please have your friend check into natural supplements they are by LifeVantage. It is called Protandim aka the little yellow pill it has done awesome things for people who have suffered from Lymes. It takes toxins out of the body. Any questions feel free to contact me.

    Liked by 1 person

  2. I hate to hear Maddi has had a relapse. . .she has been in my prayers. .eventho I have never met Maddie I feel compassion for her. I will add Kalli too along with my niece Carleen who is in surgery this very moment for cancer. Thank you Josh for your post!


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out /  Change )

Google photo

You are commenting using your Google account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s